Its getting a little harder today

Don't you wish that sometimes you could hit "print" on your head and out comes the whole conversation or post or paper that you just wrote in your head?

I was thinking on the way home about needing to write on this blog and had all kinds of things to say!
I'll try to re-create what I can remember :)

So, I've been doing good overall. I've been packing my lunch.  I've been to zumba and to yoga, I have done work on the house and walked with a friend.

But to be honest, yesterday and today were harder.  I felt some of those old habits trying to creep back in, I felt tired and like it would be easier to just stay unhealthy.  I caved a little.  I still did good at breakfast and lunch and even snacks.  It was that darn night time. 

So Monday I ate a birthday cupcake at work.  Yes, yes, its okay to have a treat once in awhile. But the problem here is that I wasn't hungry for it and I knew as soon as I had the first bite that I could have been satisfied with that.  It wasn't even that good of a cupcake.  But I kept eating it.  And I thought every forkfull, I should stop now and throw this away... but I didn't.

Monday night I don't have any scheduled workouts yet.   (eventually this will be boxing night!)
I think that on days I workout I feel better and I can feel sore muscles and I'm more apt to make better food choices.  But as it was, i went out and got a pedicure ( I did revel in the moment and remember to relax) and afterwords went home and made a small pizza.  This also wouldn't have been the end of the world, except I had a sandwich at Panera before the pedicure.  :(   and then I also had strawberries with sugar free chocolate syrup.  I just couldn't seem to stop eating.  I wanted the comfort of feeling full.

Today I did just fine for breakfast and for lunch.  I scheduled a hair appointment during Zumba, oops.  And my first Tai Chi class was cancelled.  So no working out today either.  Stopped by whole foods after the hair and guess what I ended up with? A slice of pizza.  Just 1! So thats not so bad... but when I got home?  A container of spinach artichoke hummus and pita chips.  The whole container.  What is wrong with me!?!   I know that healthy habits breed healthy habits, and I'm still doing okay. I haven't lost the war, just the day.  But it feels so easy to just quit.

I'm not going to of course.  I decided to sit and white all this out to remember that its not easy!  There is always excitement and motivation in the beginning. 

Maybe its hormones?

I'll tell you what though... sitting in that black smock in the chair in front of the mirror looking at my belly and my chin.....well, I didn't like that.  So I read a Shape magazine instead :)

Keep trying.  Get back on track.

I'm taking a mini vacation soon, I'll let you know how I survive that!  Camping was okay, so maybe there is a shot!