Hot pants?

I am a fan of Groupon, not only because of the great deals that they offer, but also because it introduces me to new activities in my area that I may otherwise not know about.  Sometimes there are products and I'm not as into those, but again, there are products out there that I might otherwise not have known about.

Today in my email was an offer from Groupon advertising Weight loss Hotpants.  What?!
I went to the website honestly thinking that it might be a funny thing to post on this blog sort of as a joke.
I am ashamed to say, I am intrigued.  All the reviews are really positive... and it looks like the XL would fit me.... and the groupon makes it affordable.... i don't know.

http://zaggora.com/

One of the things that I struggle with is guilt and feeling bad about myself.  Not all the time!
Most of the time I'm inside my head and just feeling like me! And I pretty much like me.  Then inevitably, I'll see a photograph of myself, or walk by a mirrored building or be sitting on the couch and notice how big my leg is.  And I feel crappy. I feel like such an idiot, I feel like I ruined my body.  I have felt in the past like I've ruined my chance for love, like I've ruined my health, like I've damaged the idea of a healthy pregnancy or even the chances of getting pregnant someday. I can be really really hard on myself. I can call myself hideous, a whale, disgusting.

Thoughts like this make me willing to try almost anything to fix my mistakes.  Even Hotpants!  I want to not be nervous about fitting in the seat on the roller coaster!!!

But the truth is, these thoughts don't get me anywhere.  And I did find love.  And I'm not an idiot, I'm pretty smart.  And I can change whats in those photos.  I just have to keep trying.  Its important to reinforce the positive aspects of ourselves and our lives, even in our own heads.  The negative thoughts are inevitable, everyone has them, and they seem to come easily, without actual intention.  The positive ones seem to require a little conscience thought. 
So, one more 'to do' that I am going to add to my list is to be nice to myself.  Remember and ACKNOWLEDGE the positive things. Recognize them when they are happening and don't add more hurt to whats already been done. Move forward.

Move forward feeling positive and look fabulous in those Hotpants!

Today's "Yay's and Boo's".

Yay!

1. Green tea in the morning
2. Walk on the beach, soft sand is hard on the calves!
3. No diet soda today at all, woo hoo
4. Good breakfast and lunch.

Boo!

1. Burger and onion rings for dinner, but it was so good.
2. Ate Tostitos while watching The Biggest Loser premier.  The irony was not lost on me.

~E